Break My Heart♥

alot of thiinqs iish chnqinq as we go ,
things will nvr stay dehx same as we tot .
ii use to believe alot of thiinqs , but as ii
went through all dhis iish nvr been dehx same
as wad ii use to think lyk before .
dhere iish sho many problems goiinq around ,
which ii did nt notice at all , but through ppl
around me , dey tolerate , dey see , dey feel .
ii slowly get to noe wads beyond me .
which ii nvr noe , dheir actions , tells me wad ii am .
ii always see muaiixself as rite , ii did nt feel for others ,
ii am a straightforward person , ii don think for all .
wad ii had in muaiix mind , ii juz sae iit out ,
whether ii am happpiiex , sad or even angry .
ii am classified as attitude sux , selfish , don think for others .
dhis wad ii always heard from muaiix mum n BEE .
ii tried to chnq , ii tried nt to be in dhis wae as possible .
from every brk ii qet in muaiix relationship ,
ii think bck , wad had ii done , in every brk for dehx nxt
ii would try to cheriish more dhenx dehx first one .
but still dehx same till ii met euu ,
From startiinq ii did nt think much , as ii am same wib euu
losiinq hope in relationship , sho did nt put much heart into it .
but as time goes iish nt dehx same anymore ,
feeliinqs start to build , ii am more to noe euu , from strangers till now .
iish nvr dehx same as before .
thinkiinq bck we went through alot , we smile tgt , we quarrel , we cried .
all gone through tgt before ,
dehx first time we kiss , we hug , iish sho LOVED
dehx first time we shouted at each other ,
dehx first time euu get ur salary n buy ring ,
dehx first time euu threw ur ring at me ,
dehx first time we both cried n hugged .
all memories which kept on muaiix mind ,
we always has small quarrels , on
- maple
- audi
- jealous
n alot more but in dehx end we will make up on iit .
by sae`iinq sry ,
or euu would keep sae iish ur fault , euu always sae
' My Fault larhx , my fault larhx . Okae ? Sry '
dhis wad euu did everytime ,
ii tried to control muaiixself , ii had nth much,
ii don wan anythinq lyk
- ii don niid handsome bf
- ii don niid rich bf
- ii don niid bf who keep saeiinq iloveyou but nt showinq actions on it .
- ii don niid any of dhis !
things ii niid
- ii niid CARE
- ii niid HAPPINESS
- ii niid euu nt to make me CRY
- ii niid euu euu euu juz EUU
- TERRY ONG ZHI QIANG , none other dhenx euu .
euu may think ii am wriiting a load of rubbish ,
euu may think ii am juz saeiinq iit , n a few daes
dhats all ii will nt do much more ..
BUT ii prove euu wronq , lyk euu don believe ii am
qoiinq to w8 euu for 2 yrs ...
ME , ii sae wd ii meant .
euu can dont believe wad crap ii am typiinq here ,
euu might think ii am lyk a FOOL ,
but ii gonna tell euu , dhis iish NO JOKE .
every word ii type here iish comiinq from
rite in muaiix heart .
BELIEVE OR NT , ur choice .
qoiinq to 6mths , n we are lyk still unstable .
- ii dunno wad would happen nxt
- ii dunno wad to do make it better
- ii dunno wad would euu do
- ii dunno will euu be dehx one who gib up on our R/S or me
- ii dunno ii dunnno
ii always ii sae ii hate dhis DUNNO word but till now ii am usiinq iit .
ii am person who see further ,
ii don plan for onli tmr ,
ii plan for muaiix FUTURE .
look further , dhats wad ii am lookinq for .
ii onli noe , ii niid euu .
no matter wad ii am nt gonna let euu go .

♥so break my heart for the final time
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